Careful Denise... I struggle a bit with the drinking issue even though on my mood charting it is so obviously not helpful. The struggle is not that it's some big problem, but that it is an annoyingly persistant argument with myself. Frustrating.

Today I feel rather unmmotivated. Want to get a haircut. It's right down the road and I'm afraid to even get on the phone to see if they've got some time. Ugh. Also kind of freaked out at some stuff I posted earlier. Then edited out awhile later. Sometimes I just don't know what to say, but try, and then go on and on, and it's probably half-coherent and not even helpful. Good at observing and listening, but when it comes to participating, half the time I'm not sure what I'm saying or how it's coming off, when all I want to do is let them know I'm there and get it. Spending time with some people I know recently, I said something and everyone turned and started on me. Had no idea why what I said was so wrong. And every time I tried to make it right, it apparently just got worse. Still don't know why, but they did tell me to put down the shovel. (Know why on the shovel, not on the wrongness.) Sigh. And double sigh. I'm doing it again...

Let's see what's on this itty bitty list then. Because seriously? This chair has had enough. It's time to get up.

And edited to add: Guilty. So many things I really need to be doing. Even want to be doing! Even little things! And, just can't seem to get there. So... frustrated too I guess. Unmotivated. Guilty. Frustrated. Dash of anxiety. Yup, that about covers it.