I would be feeling the same way...actually I have felt that way. My boyfriend in Highschool dumped me. I was so in love with him. It drove me up the wall to see him with other girls. I lived in torment for over a year. I was jealous of whomever he went out with. I made it a point to go out with his all friends and get laid. I even when out with his brother. Sigh, that is NOT something that I am proud of since his brother was quite young. Funny thing is, when he graduated (he was a class above me) and left for Minnesota I felt fine. I didn't miss him a bit. Was actually rather glad that he was gone. He was a jerk anyway. Don't know what this says about me but I found distance was just what I needed to get a perspective on the situation.
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Those who know they do not know gain wisdom. Those who pretend they know ramain ignorant. Those who acknowledge their weakness become strong. Those who flaunt their power will lose it. Wisdom and power follow truth above all. For truth is the way of Tao. --from the Tao Te Ching