I'm by my boyfriend's favors and requests? I don't want to listen to what he tells me. I him and everything but he scares me way too badly that. I can't speak and or think for myself without him terrorizing me half to death and. I seem to see him wherever. I go and even though he's got me right where he wanted me to be?!? is all. I do know and even though. I'm border line Bipolar Depressive Disorder and maybe he wants to get rid of me so he'll be a man?! I won't have to worry about what he wants so badly for me to do to myself?! and anyway after the fact he wants to scare me with his harsh and hateful words and requests is all he has and. I'm trying to reason with him too but. I'm losing everything good about him and maybe his signs of verbal abuse is tearing and bringing me down really fast!!!!!! and he can't stop lol at me at all. I try to get him to stop but it's so difficult for him to see from my perspective that he's hurting us and mostly me and my self-esteem and my love for him also
for me from him what so ever?! I feel worthless all the time and he has me right where he wanted me to be a really long time ago as well.