My mother has suggested that I have a lithium level checked and see if my dose can't be up because lithium is one of the most natural things that is used to treat bi-polar. So tomorrow I'm calling my mental health office, getting an order to have my lithium checked and making sure the hostipal sends the mental health office the report (cause the hostipal hadn't).

There is someone in my town that is a certified herbologist, I am planning on trying to get ahold of that person and see if they might be able to make any suggestions, but my mother says that person it hard to get a hold of cause they also nurse that the hostipal in town.

I did take some rescue remedy yesterday. Kept it in my drink through out the day as well, and I could tell a major difference. My brain moved slower, at a more normal pace. AND I WAS ABLE TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT!!! I didn't want to tear the house down, nor did I cry any.

Now the great debate is telling mom it worked. And I can't exactly tell my boyfriend what's in rescue remedy because there is alchol in it and he is totally against it. But it helped. But there is also Helianthemum nummularium HPUS, Clematis vitalba HPUS, Impatiens glandulifera HPUS, Prunus cerasifera HPUS, Ornithogalum umbellatum HPUS as the active indgedents, the the 27% alchol is "inactive".

Maybe there is a light at the end of this tunnel.