I ALWAYS want to run away from myself cyber. I'm sure that if you dont win it's not because you missed an ingredient though I know it will feel that way. I am sorry to hear every one is feeling so depressed.

Lauru: I know exactly how you feel. I have been drinking all weekend. Its a hard thing NOT to do as Im staying on the beach with my mom for the weekend to clean out my room and was helping a friend cook at a bar. Being 26 and (according to all the old men) cute everyone buys me drinks. I got so wasted last night and did something I majorly regret.

This morning I was so sui I called the local and national crisis lines just to be treated rudely and hung up on by more than one person. Finally I called the local womens drug/alcohol treatment center and the lady who answered talked to me and listened to me like I was important. She wasnt even a nurse or counselor or anything, just someone who worked there and happened to answer the phone. i dont remember much of the conversation just that I couldnt go inpatient there because they wouldnt let me have my Ativan as its a narcotic and how nice the woman was to just talk to me.

I hope everyone can find a way to make it through the day with the least ammnt of pain possible....