Okay,no he didn't mention termination at all.

I'm just having a horrible abreaction to something. I'm not even sure it's him - although he's got it coming.

Whatever it is, it is powerful and it must be old to be evoking this kind of profound response from my mind, body and spirit.

From here on out, at least until he returns, this has got to be about containment and taking it easy on myself.

I've got to allow myself to be and do what I need to do to survive it.