cybermember don't be to hard on yourself, we all make mistakes. I also wish I could run away from myself at times. Hope you feel better soon.

Denise26 I can't believe the reaction you got from the national crisis line. I am proud you sought out help though. I'm glad you finally got hold of someone kind and that would listen to you. I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. I wish I could reach out and make things better for you.


Today I feel decent I guess. I got the things I had to do done, which I manage to do daily. Anything above and beyond have to doesn't seem to get done. I used to be such a clean freak, now my house needs a major overhauling. I just can't seem to bring myself into taking care of it. I wish I could find the energy and drive I once had. I so feel like I'm faded into the background. A manic spell would almost be welcomed right now. I know I shouldn't wish that but I have sooo much that needs to be done. Oh well, I guess it will be put off yet another day.