Had a good weekend with Louis. he went out Saturday night with the boys.. and I didn't hear from him the next day until late in the afternoon. All that went through my mind was that he didn't want to be with me anymore.. he was SLEEPING... so the paniced thoughts are just getting over the top. He came over after he woke up, was really guilty about sleeping the day away and sucking up etc.
I jokingly said that I thought he must have met someone else while he was out.. and he hugged me, told me to stop having those thoughts as he had what he wanted right here, and he wasn't going anywhere..
I need to stop (at the very least) expressing the thoughts.. surely it will turn him off eventually that i am so insecure and jealous... I NEVER used to be this way.. it's horrible!!