it does help, Jexa, thank you. If I think about going but not doing trauma work, I feel like I can breathe. It's hard for me to take the reins in therapy, I always (or almost always) end up deferring to T. I think this time I need to steer the ship.

I'm tempted to call her tonight & tell her what's going on because if she says ok, we don't have to do trauma work, I will breathe a huge sigh of relief. If she doesn't say ok, then I can cancel, lol.