I realize that when we took an "official" break from trauma work it was difficult for me and I felt like I was being stifled, not being "allowed" to talk about it. And now I feel kind of pushed too hard and I wish we could take a break.

so, maybe my issue is more with not being (or feeling) in control of my therapy? Maybe I really need to assert myself and my needs in the moment, rather than letting T take the lead. Because, you're right MUE, only I know what I can handle. I know my T has a time frame in her head about how long this is supposed to take, and that has never sat well with me.

Maybe this is all me just not liking her time frame and her being in control all the time.

Obviously I need to go there and talk to her about it. I will just keep telling myself that I AM in charge and it's not like she can (or would) force me to talk about anything.