Awwww, thanks vjdragonfly! It wasn't so terrible really. More uncomfortable and embarrasing. It was more that I completely didn't know how to play my hand/interact. I had inside information (rare occurance) in which I simply couldn't "play along" and any attempts at joining in were just not going over. But I couldn't explain my comments without betraying confidence, even though I was only looking out for their best interest. I should have just shut up. The talk was just playing into a fantasy I'd spent many a long and draining night trying to help this person out of fooling and destroying themselves with. (Note, this is soooo rare for me. No one really talks to me and I end up putting up with ridiculous things when such a thing occurs. I want so badly to help, but people in general avoid me for being "weird". This person confides because they know they can say the very darkest things to me w/o judgement. Guess my perspective on that comes in handy. ) So yeah, the best intentions...

Today... feeling... pretty decent. Woke up full of regret and second-guessing. Wondering when and if so often I should speak and being rather paranoid over many things. Got up and on with it though. Managed to put in a new wireless today!!! I'd put it off, knowing that the endeavor was fraught with ballistic peril. Objects in flight: 4. Major league swearing: 10. Or so. Or more. Believe it or not, I consider that success! No major league meltdown, yea!!! The mere sight of a tangle of wires is very agitating, so I'm oddly proud of myself(!) LOL.