ok, so I just got a call from a blocked #, and all I could think was that it was T calling to cancel me for tomorrow. I was kind of which tells me that I really DON'T want to miss tomorrow's session, I'm just scared. It was a kind of good insight into my true feelings, because I was REALLY relieved when it wasn't T.

I didn't call her & leave her a message about how I'm feeling, because I had a deal with myself to not call her this weekend, but I will call her tomorrow before my session, assuming I'm still feeling this anxious about it.