((((feary)))

it seems as if you have already decided and that is so sad because no matter how bad it gets (and it gets bad for all of us), there is always the moment in which one chooses for things to be different.

In that one moment you can decide to change your thoughts. Even with OCD I've managed to break the thoughts down one tiny piece at a time. I'm not there yet nowhere close but I started from a point similar to yours and within a couple of years I've managed to get the OCD down to a few billion thoughts a day and the anxiety and agoraphobia to the point where if I get the courage to go out onto the deck, I now walk inside in a dignified manner when the neighbour gets home rather than bolting inside as if him seeing me would blister my skin.

Wake up feary, let life in don't block it out and then complain that its not there for you...You and ONLY you are in control of whether you will get well from this. I know it seems all up hill and hard, and I'm not going to say that it's easy but it is POSSIBLE.

I was the most hopeless case I knew of and I felt as if I didn't deserve to take up space in the universe...but I've come from that to where I am now...and that is a really big thing for me. I wouldn't even let sunlight touch my skin and now I even go into town on occasion...going this thurs to see a doctor

Anything is possible feary if you just give it a chance

((((hugs))))

Rhiannon