WoW! I read alot of what everyone writes, I just cant think of anything positive to say. I really admire those of you that try to look at the good and positive,not giving up. I only see the negative,feeling the system has let me down, That I will never be normal, That I will die with these problems. That there treatments are lies, When I see someone make a comment that there down and suffering, and they ARE taking meds. Makes me sad. Makes me think of there long rode of mental illness even with meds. And when I read where someone is doing well on a med, I still get sad because I know they will still have there relapses threw out life, only seeing brief periods of happiness.I dont think anything I read ,I see in a positive way. I know how we are treated, thought of by others, all the temparary fixes you will all see in time. I use to could see how some of you do. believing I will find happiness, That right drug. The treatment that works for me.I dont know what happened that I cant dream about that anymore. I only see the cold hard facts. Does age do that? And many dissapointments ?