Hi Middman,

I can relate to your anger. But I am wondering if you are hiding your anger behind apathy and resignation?
Idk... I am very good at this. I have hid my anger about my life behind strict apathy and resignation. But it hasn't really helped for me. Why I have sought out therapy again.
When I see a comment that someone is down and suffering, and they are taking meds it makes me sad too. Yet I personally know those who have come out of twelve+ years of severe depression. Many treatments/meds later. An urgency of self-care is so important. I have thought about my T accepting pay to help me. Still, my parents weren't there to do it. That's the irony. Anyway, who would want to sit and listen to someone else's problems all day? A good T. You could say a brain surgeon is only in it for the money as well. Still, if one is in dire need of brain surgery...
I have no choice. Can't afford to be hopeless. I am slowly learning that the most important thing is to keep going, keep demanding help.
Good thoughts your way.

E