I can sure relate to not having a loving nurturing mother.
So sorry you had similar too.

Sounds like it's a void in your existance that begs to be filled

Was wondering.... have you ever talked to your T. about ways in which this void can be filled? if not a mother figure -- then what?

I would be interested to hear what direction she(your T.) would point you towards.... I myself have found it too dangerous, risky to hope/wish/expect someone else to fulfill a void I have within... but.... then I have huge trust issues

regards
fins