Anyone out there have extra support to give today. A hug, a kind word. I hate asking for any of this, but I could use some feedback to let me know I am still cared for.

This year has seemed to be extremly hard for me. My son has been my inspiration this year and now that he is going through his terrible 2 stages, ugh...so tiring and exhausting. Don't get me wrong I love my son and do everything I can for him. It has just run me down to utter exhaustion.

My husband and I, well we have our ups and downs. Some days are bad but more good than bad since I talk more to him.

My emotional well being. I don't feel very confident in myself. I don't care about myself or well being yet I pack a bad to go to the gym today. Time comes to go and I don't. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just do something good for myself for a change. I even was at home one day all by myself, no kid, no husband, just me...I felt so lost and confused. I don't even know who I am anymore. I didn't know what to do with myself.

I guess I am just down tot he point that I don't care. I'm not planning anything bad to myself so now worries there. But I do feel....well nothing. Just here floating through life. Not remembering anything, just a being in the world for what???? not really sure myself.

I know this is long I'm just trying to find the right words to say but I just don't have them.