For me I think I care because no one ever cared for me. Somewhere inside myself I feel deeply for others and when someone hurts somehow I can connect to their pain on many different levels. It is not for show because many times no one even knows that I am feeling sad for that person. I can watch the news and see something that can bring tears to my eyes and I many times will just stop and send up a prayer and thoughts for the family and friends.

When you never had anyone care and there was no where to turn and it seemed that there was no one in the world you feel so alone and abandoned. When I hear of a chld that is taken and later found, I feel that awful pull of that feeling of being trapped without anyone and my heart goes out with an understanding that maybe I cannot explain. I feel the fear that child might have felt through my own experience. When I was a child I could have no emotions, no one knew I was hurting or being hurt. But that does not mean that I did not feel. My feelings were pulled deep within by those within myself where they were safe.

When our soldiers and officers are killed in the line of duty, it touches my heart not out of pity but out of sadness that they were protecting our country, something I am a part of and in turn it effects us all. Maybe it is partly the pull in my heart of the loss of a good man or woman for it always seemed to me that all good was lost and pulled away. For in my life anyway, it seems that the bad always wins and gets by with hurting, it just really affects me. The families that lose their loved ones touches my heart. And many times I wonder what it would have been like to have someone love you and care that you were gone.

Maybe I am different and weird but I am touched at the loss of those that do not deserve to be hurt. So many cannot defend themselves, do not have a chance, and even if they are calling for help, no one can hear them. I know that feeling and my heart goes there when I hear things. When you have touched or been trapped in evil and bad, I think you can feel much. To care about others is in my heart. When others hurt I can empathize and sympathize with them. I can connect and many times in that connection there is comfort of understanding and hope that someone else understands.

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