I am still struggling pretty intensely. I did do an intake today for a depression therapy group, which I'll start tomorrow. I also got an appointment scheduled with my psychiatrist for the day after tomorrow. But wow, it has been a while since I have felt this completely hopeless about my life. I'm not sure if I need to be hospitalized or not. I'm not planning to act on the thoughts I'm having, and I'm not an impulsive person. But, I'm just feeling so dang miserable, that if giving up my clothes with strings and checking myself into my local psych ward might help, I'm almost at the point of being willing to do that. The one time I've been hospitalized (about a year and a half ago), it was helpful. Could I be lucky enough to have it be helpful a second time? I don't know...