I dread everything so much. I woke up during the night the last couple of nights absolutely dreading the things that I had to do that day. The things aren't even bad things and I dread them sooo much. I used to think I was unhapy because of the job I had and now I have my my dream job and the dread is still there all the time. I thought that I would be happy once i got out of the jobs I had. i was ultimately wrong. Life is so unbearable. I want to avoid all of my responsibilities. Everything is really hard to keep up with. I'm drowning.