I was so worried when you said you went off your meds, but I totally agree with choosing & lessening your meds to only the ones that are really doing the job. Being over medicated is the worst thing in the world. It's tough going through the withdrawal, but I am sure that in the long run, you will be better off. As long as you are on the meds that control your depression & keep you consistant I think you will definitely feel better. Guess my feeling is that you know you wouldn't get support in doing what you are doing, so doing it the way you are, & then showing everyone how much better you really are without those meds is sort of a show them sort of thing that will be proved when you are there.

I have so much trouble with meds, I ended up not being able to take anything except for the natural Omega 3 (EPA) for depression/anxiety as everything else knocked me out completely or have me horrible side effects. I'm not bipolar & realize that is a whole different situation than my own, but I do understand the horrible feeling of being overmedicated when they were trying every possible med to see if they could find something that worked. I don't make a very good guinea pig & ended up refusing to continue.....

I truly hope that once you are over the withdrawal that you will find this is the right answer for your situation & that you feel 100% better.