Yes, everyone is different - if I went off my meds I would suicide, for me it is that straight out. But I have also taken YEARS to get what I believe is the right meds mix and the psychiatrist I have had for the last 2 years is the best they come. I know what you mean about not having that trust relationship with your psychiatrist - I had several psychiatrists in a rown who literally nearly medicated me to death - I was on meds that were contraindicated for me for years and as a result I nearly died. I'm a 100% compliant patient but if I had known what was going on then I would have gone non-compliant. They DON'T always know what they are doing and moreover -THEY DON'T ALWAYS CARE. Some are in it just for a prestigious job and some, like the one I have now, have a vocation - just keep advocating for yourself until you get one who has a vocation.