Hope you are right. Distance is a great thing. I don't really trust it. It works for now.
I also think that cynicism is good medication.
I keep the spirits up by telling myself that nothing ever works out in life for people just sitting on a bench crying, right ? On a more general level, a few people need to understand now that they have to treat me better. I need to speak out. This I will do.
I have just seen the film "Le goût des autres" ("Taste for others"). Some brilliant lines. When one of the main character says that she wants to live in a perfect world where everybody is nice etc.., the chauffeur answers : "You'll have to live in Disneyland then".
Another great film against gloom : "Cuisines et dépendances" :
"Have you seen that woman and how she dresses ? This super mini skirt ! How vulgar! Even you didn't dress like that!"
"What do you mean by that ?"
"No, I mean, you know, you were the pushy kind, but... I will check if dinner is ready."
Yea, I am going through my DVD collection, avoiding "Magnolia", "The hours", "Hero" and "Dogville".
Another good one is the German film "Rossini" (name of a restaurant in Munich where you can meet the rich and famous). The ultimate cynicism.
Dialogue between an actress and the owner :
"Can't you change this diner light ? One looks like a corpse in this light. It is misogynistic!! I am surprised women still accept to eat here !"
"I wish some of them wouldn't".
When the waitress tries to seduce the recluse writer, hunted by film producers who want to turn his book into a film, he tells her :
"No realism please. I am a writer !" (replace "writer" by whatever you want)
The French film "La fille sur le pont" ("The girl on the bridge") is also great against depression. When the girl on the bridge jumps and is fished out of the water by an artist and they both lie in hospital, she complains she can't even succeed in killing herself, a fellow bridge jumper tells her :"Don't be too harsh on yourself, you'll do better next time!". The film is great fun. Very uplifting. The keyline is : "You don't get lucky. You make your luck yourself".
Ain't that true ?