Thank you all for your warm words and your support.....You guys are my heart....

I'm doing a bit better....I tried the whole day yesterday to force myself to breath....tried to remember to breath....I noticed that I was holding my breath and I had to remind myself "Hey Marjan, breathe, don't forget, you got to breathe" and as I exhale I feel all my worrisome leaving my body....I slept very bad last night, the whole night I had anxiety and the anxiety creates stomachache....unbelievable.....I'm seeing a T today....hope she can help me.....I've been crying most of the time and could not concentrate at work....that's my primary focus....I need to do good at my job....I can't afford losing my job over stupid anxiety....

(((Rhiannonsmoon))) I know what you mean by me being so hard on myself....that's what I do always....trying to be perfect and if something goes the way that it shouldn't then I get all upset and anxious.....well...it was a nice break meeting Brandon, but he hasn't contacted me since Saturday and I think that's it....well...It would be nice to have somebody, but it's not worth of all the pain I guess....

(((lynn))) I did what you said about breathing, writing and even I tried the shower and washing off all my thoughts away....It made me feel better....Also, I took care of some of the works that was making me so anxious the one that I wrote on the side that I can do something about....so, less stress for me at least for that one....Also, I worked a bit more yesterday and hope I will finish that part today....

Thanks guys again....I love you all....and you guys are here to help me feel not lonely.....sometimes, I'm not sure if I'm able to carry on with my loneliness.....

Marjan