I find myself in a constant state of choosing between ultimatums. Either I give up or I give my all, either I love being me or I am unintentionally and (seemingly uncontrollably) cutting myself down. I'm not consistent and I'm extreme.

My problem lies in that fact!! I want to be able to focus on something and go for it, but when I rely on other people (even if it involves my master planning to pull it off) and they don't pull through, everything goes to shambles. Yet before I started to work toward it I told myself I would figure it out myself no matter what it takes.

I rely too much on my own expectations and I can't seem to control my thinking. PS--I am an overthinker. It effects everything. I can't seem to get out my head.