Hi silentwhisper,

I think I know the feelings you describe... like you are using a lot of energy just to "push through" but are not really present while going through the motions of life. (?)
Maybe it might help to sit down in a quiet place and write about those emotions that are occuring "underneath?" Do you feel angry? Let down? Hurt? Tired? Confused?
Maybe you could write a bit more about it here if that feels ok...
Have you tried any meds or therapy?

Sending warm wishes your way.

E