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Originally Posted by Rohag
Hi, Middman!
Certainly age, repeated disappointments and base personality all play into our outlook on our illness.
Over time, I've gone from hoping to get off the Island of Misfit Toys to seeing the Island as my home. I wouldn't reject a rescue, I simply no longer expect my being a good, compliant patient will result in deliverance. It's not so much that I'm "hopeless," it's more like I'm living without reference to hope.
Maybe hope will reassert itself someday. I don't know; I don't think about it much anymore.  |
I agree 100% Thank you very much for that! I think thats what Im doing (Living without reference to hope) Yes with age and repeated disappointments it has made me feel this way. You made my Day! Someone else understands me! THANK YOU!!!!
I just cant look at it with a young heart,and eyes anymore. I got to work on my being bitter over it. Its not like I can get my money back because they didnt cure me..LOL..Now that I think about it,All the promises of getting the right meds and treatments kept me hanging on...Now Im just to old to believe that anymore. But I did make it to the age I am now, So all was not lost. Maybe that was the plan anyway, Ya Know?