Are you a loser, jiakhan? I don't think so. I think you'll grow out of this problem. I think you'll have many other boyfriends. I think you'll find the love of your life and marry him and have children with him who you'll watch grow up tall and strong and get married and give you grandchildren. It's so hard to be young. Everything is so new and different, one has no perspective and little understanding. It gets easier as you grow up, you know. You didn't ask to be born but you were, and here you are facing the problems of life. You're not at the end of the road, jiakhan. By no means. You're at the very beginning. And that's a wonderful thing. And a hard thing. You're between two stages of comfort and have to struggle along the narrow, dangerous place in between. But you can do it. We all can do it. And we do. You are not a loser, jiakhan. You are a young person just starting out. And that is painful and hopeful at the same time. Do not worry. You will have all that is your due. Boyfriends, husbands, children, joy, sorrow, fulfillment, pain. The journey is long, young lady. But you will travel all the way until the end. And you will be glad you did. Take care.