when i was 7 my best friend and i were playing in the local playground like be always did at one point she was on the swing and i was on the round-about, a man in his 20's aproched us and stabbed my friend to death all i remember next was him coming for me and somecame then he ran away. the person who killed my friend was never caught. i it is 6 yrs later to the day and i am still scared of him coming to my room at night and killing me.

her family invited me over to come to there house to remember her but i couldn't, it hurts just so much thinking about it we had know each other since we were toddlers and even though she has been dead for 6 yrs and i am now 13 i still think of her as my sister, but now i feel guilty for refusing to see her family what should i do??

as well as i have already posted about my boy friends death i have realized how much i hate this month i am 13 yrs old and two of the closed people to me have died in august. my boy friends death on the 8 of august 2008 and my best friends on the 10th of august. i feel depresed all the way through this month please does any one no away for me to forget? or move on?