Bama, I see alot of negative in you. I see you looking and talking about all the negative things going on. Your sister, gas money, how long this clean time will be. Where are all the possitive things going on now. Like you are clean right now. You are not giving up, things like that. If you keep looking at all the negative things or reasons, that is all that you will see. Look at the possitive ones and then that will help build yourself up instead of tear you down. We are so use to tearing ourselves down when using that it is new to us to build ourselves up through what we are doing. Try it. Maybe it will not work. But isn't it worth a try to stay clean and sober. Focus on the negatives and the negatives increase, focus on the possitives and the possitives increase, that is what I have been told and still use today.

Allan