If I only knew back then what I do now I wouldn’t have started. I’m so tired of hiding the pain I hold within. The more I suffer the better it feels and the worse guilt I feel afterwards. It almost feels like the friends I have that know about my SI and see the scars just don’t know what to do or don’t confront me about it at all. I started going to therapy again but I don’t know anymore. Therapy is most definitely not helping me at all and I’m thinking about giving up. I SI’d for the first time in two weeks. I went two weeks and then gave in today.