Over the past couple of weeks it seems that I've been on a continual roller coaster ride. I'm sure some of it has to do with my current job situation, which is non-existant. In August I needed to take a short medical leave to do some med. adjustment and while I was gone they filled my position.

Been looking but so far coming up empty. I can't believe the stress and anxiety I've been feeling everytime I go for an interview or even think about it.

I've tried to explain just how I've been feeling to family and my friends but they just don't seem to get it. My sister thinks that just because I'm on meds I'm suddenly cured. Tried to explain that it doesn't work that way and that I still struggle on a daily basis, sure things are better but there are still ups and downs.

Lately I've just been feeling like a failure even though I know that I'm not. Just trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel.