Thanks for your responses.

Firstly, I guess school is not psychologically draining, but emotionally draining. It is a fast paced, one year program for those who already have a bachelor's degree. So everything we are learning and doing is at 100 miles per hour. The nursing part is great. Love it...it's just getting through these classes.

Yes, my husband is a supportive guy. He is just doing what every guy does, and that's try to fix the problem. I don't know if it is just me being super defensive (actually I know that is a problem with me). I feel like when he tries to fix the problem, he is actually attacking me and telling me I am stupid. But that is not what he is doing at all. How can I stop being so defensive and fighting back at him? I am in the process of making an appointment for counseling.

For as long as I can remember, I have had issues with depression, feeling like no one likes me, and feeling lke people think I am stupid. My parents were not abusive. They were supportive, just not really outgoing and vocal. I want so badly to have some reason in my past to blame my sadness on so I could try to remove that from my life but there is nothing. I have just always been this way. It makes me want to leave my husband and never be in a relationship ever again. I just don't know how to be in a relationship it seems.

It is exhausting every time I talk to my husband, because he knows something is not right with me, and I just try to sweep it aside and focus on good days when we are having them. But he can't do that. When we talk about it, we both end the discussion feeling like we have to hold our tongues in future discussions so that we do not hurt each other's feelings.

I don't want to divorce. but sometimes I fantasize about being on my own, but that is just a way of wanting to escape the problem.