If most people have a delusion or two, how come most people aren't on an antipsychotic?

I'm afraid that my p-doc has misunderstood me. People really do push me to kill myself sometimes. They don't mean to do it, but they do. Things get dangerous because I have to prove that I really am suffering by hurting myself. I'm not really delusional. Or am I?

Sometimes I get obessed with an administrator on another online support forum. I think he is my friend and that he jokes around with me, even though he doesn't really participate. He moves things around and sometimes I think it is because of me. Sometimes I get really really upset. I think maybe sometimes I can't tell the difference between my imagination and what is really happening.

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