i do that as well..i have listened to the same song over and over for hours and hours,,,seems weird now,but if i think about it,,it feels like the song made me feel understood and not alone and empowered by that..maybe we arent the ones so messed up,,the world is a mess and if you dont look,act,speak a certain way then we are weak...i still love listening to the song but i do not allow myself to hear it for so long,,feels like i wasted the time after so long because i am in that state and escaping reality...i just wanted to say i understand where your coming from,,,have a better day