Yay Inner!!! Sounds like your on the path to some recovery! I know what you mean about either completely clamming up or unleashing a verbal STORM as I do the same thing... As wells as the freaking out when lost... I hate driving period, makes me so very anxious sometimes I just have to pull over and stop until I can regroup. Anyways way to reach down and find the strength to succeed in the face of all that you are up against. Thats so very admirable, keep it up!