Oh, I was a Hospice nurse...bad mix when PTSD is coming to the forefront, lol. Too much grief....PTSD is GREIF WORK. The infant maybe triggering you too, adding to the already overwhelming grief you are carrying. Just a thought.
Ask your T about the book, "Homecoming" by John Bradshaw...I am working on it now. I had a 4 hour session with my T Mon...I was in no condition to go anywhere and had a 50 min drive home. HUGZ....and a shoulder to cry on...you need to cry.