wow thanks for the insight...I was always the one in the back seat...he was controlling everything...and we both argued over who got the better deal in the end...and I still allow him to influence me today...I keep thinking over and over whether he relaly did ahve feelings at the time for me...and he was a father figure to me...and a role model...I still have the things he gave me...and I cuddle with the teddy bear he gave me because it gives me a sense of security and a sense of being loved...he used to spray his cologne on it...and the smell made me feel safe