I don't know if depression is making me feel bad, but I continue to try to make my life what it was before a car accident I was in a long time ago. A total allusion, but I have so much HOPE that anything is possible....right?

I really do have a GREAT life. I love my parents and I make the most of every moment, but I feel like something is missing and I am not REALLY happy.

When I do physical activities I am never satisfied with my ability to complete the task. So as a result I get hurt a lot when I push myself to new limits, and this does not help me with physical therapy when I get a lecture about how my legs do not need to be re-injured. Although, every time I hear this lecture I get angry because if I can't be as physically active as I am now when I am...say 30...what is the point of me being here. On some level I know this wrong....but I feel that some other person could have been saved and they could have done a much better job of fulfilling their purpose in life and appreciating their gift.

K