Status update:

The Lexapro withdrawals were so bad this morning that I finally took 5 mg to ease the symptoms. It worked wonders, but I hate that I had to take it again. I wanted to tough it out, and this will just prolong the process. Boo.

I'm meeting with my psychologist tonight. At our last contact he seemed really worried about me... and fairly worried about himself too, since he kind of overstepped his bounds by helping me decide to take my medications into my own hands. We definitely need to talk about this... he helped me get into this situation, so he'd better be willing to help me through it.

I was feeling pretty anxious about it last night, but I'm doing a bit better now... feeling like things are okay again.

I still haven't told my mom or friends or anyone... and that's hard, especially when you're not feeling well and going through withdrawals.

I'll update you on what the psychologist says tonight.