Definitely an over-generalization. There are many people in this world that actually do care about you, and you may not even know them! Hard to believe, I know. But it's true.

I can see that you're hurting inside. Pushing other people and their happiness aside is understandable. It hurts to see others happy and celebrating when you're in such pain and misery. You don't want any more pain in your life. I understand. I've been there. Anger is much easier and more acceptable to express. It's not re-living the pain. Instead, the trigger of the emotion is kind of tweaked.

For example, sadness is the hardest emotion for me to work through. As a result, I often turn and lash out anger at someone, rather than deal with the sadness that I feel. I can't explain why ~ I've just recently noticed that it's something I do.

Gentle hugs to you, Sunset-L. I hope that you're working with someone, to get through these dark times in life. It isn't fun or easy.