As you know, I've been struggling with this whole situation with my T....and one of the things I expressed in my email to T about when he did what I perceived as threatening termination if I didn't do what he felt was in my best interest....it was as if I heard, "Do as I say or I will hurt you!"....

So, now, all of a sudden, I'm getting major flashbacks of past events that fell along the same line of events....anger being expressed towards me, manipulation into doing what he wanted, me being cooperative, and in return, being spared further mistreatment....

And I'm able to identify the same sick-to-my-stomach, fear-induced feeling....

Even though I am still unhappy with T's approach and how he handled things, I now may be on my way to having a better understanding of why I felt the way I did in such an extreme way....

I may bring this up with T tomorrow, if we are able to get that far....but I'm afraid of leaving there with wounds open wide - and then leaving on vacation with family in that state.

What timing!