I am really depressed. My partner just said she has no one to depend on financially, like the other people at her work do. Meaning - I am a sorry loser who can't keep a job because I have bipolar and I am always getting depressed and losing it. Meaning - I am stressing her out and not a good enough partner. Little does she know, though that I am very depressed and sui and yet I have not told her or allowed her to see me even a little depressed. All so i don't stress her out. Doesn't that make me a good partner? Why can't she get that I'm bipolar and I get depressed and I sometimes go into the hospital. I don't want her to leave me, but damn, I might end up in the hospital. And then she may leave me. I am just so sad, unrelentingly sad. It will never end. I will always be this way. I am a total failure, such a loser.