Thank you for your kind words and your touching story. It has inspired me. Congrats on going that long without it, that is such a huge accomplishment.

I think I just need someone to tell me it’s alright to slip up. Everyone acts like it’s such a big deal, it’s so terrible but it’s a process, one that I haven’t mastered yet. I know I have my work cut out for me (no pun intended) and I’m not sure if I can do it but I have nothing to lose. Every time I try to go without it I slip up and then it’s one major relapse that lasts a month or so. Then I can maybe go a week without, and then the cycle repeats.