Wow I am so sorry you had to witness this at such a young age... I really hope you will get counseling for it though, as that much baggage is really tough to deal with... I know how hard it is to carry a lot of baggage like that and still try to live life, it isn't easy. I don't know what to tell you other than we are all here for you in your loss. It's so hard to lose someone, and to witness it especially at the age you were is so much harder.. I hope you can get some help that will help with the nightmares, although I know the images will last forever.. If you ever need help or can't sleep, let me know and I will stay up with you.

Good luck with all you are going through.