Hi all,

I'm 34, I've suffered with depression and eating disorders most of my life and at the moment I'm in a bit of a bad way.

I know what I need to do to change things, and I'm doing some of them - I'm getting down the gym regularly, I'm trying to avoid skipping meals, I'm trying to get a regular sleep pattern. I'm trying to stop negative thoughts before they start and I'm trying to take things step by step. I'm also learning the violin (which is going well) and trying to spend more time with friends.

The problem is that I look at the things I need to do to change and I just think 'why bother?'. I'd really like to be in a better position in my life but I just can't seem to get the energy together to make a real change. This is quite frustrating for me - I want to change and am unhappy with my life but I can't get started to make the changes that need to happen. There are lots of opportunities for me but I just can't seem to get the energy together to take them. I don't seem to have a reason to make the change. I don't have a family (no partner or kids).

Thx for reading x