I started a new med today. I use to take Effexor, and this is a new generic form. Much less expensive. I'm really hoping it helps.
I'm doing much better with the break up. It's been a week, and I know that there is still grief to go through, but right now, I'm ok. Yesterday, about noon I realized that I wasn't constantly thinking about her, that I had let other things fill my mind. And I was happy about that. Not that I didn't think about her at all, but it wasn't this constant drag on my mind. I didn't cry at all yesterday, and that's way up from crying myself to sleep almost every night for over 2 months.
Here's my thought, though, and tell me what you think. I called my doc to get back on my meds yesterday, took the first one this morning. But I'm wondering if I should hold off on them to see how I do without. I went off of them a year and a half ago because it seemed like I never actually "felt" anything. No emotion. I thought about that when I took my pill this morning. I don't want to be like that again. I want to feel happy or sad or love. I don't want to be emotionless. I know I have alot of grief to still go through, and my depression is about to make me lose my job. That's why I called the doc.
I just feel conflicted about it. What do you think? Any ideas?