Hi Everyone! I'm not going to complain today for once. I have been feeling good lately. Thanks to Rohags reply to me in (Lost my dream) I had come to this site when I was feeling down, and seen how we all still suffer from this. Made me think of all the years I payed doctors and therapist. And that just made me feel worse! I started complaining on this site, I got allot of things off my chest. You see, I stopped going threw doctors and therapist, I stopped taking meds. 2 years ago, When I did take Lexapro,(last thing I took) I noticed it made me feel different but not necessarily better. I realised no matter what I may take it wasn't going to cure me, I realized that I'm in my 40s now, I'm pretty much going to live out my life never finding out the secret of happiness, But don't feel like I'm any more strange than my fellow man and women. I see things, that I just keep to myself, I realize there not real, I choose to ignore, or who knows It may be ghost and they are real, whatever the case I don't care. LOL. I often find happiness in my kids and family. I try to focus on other things to get me out of myself, If that makes sense.This site gave me a place to feel safe, and complain. discuss what I often hide within. Now I feel much better, I think I will still stay a member, Check in sometimes to see how everyone is. and keep this place, should I need a place to go again. Thank you all. If I could say something that I thought would help you guys it would be, Your not as strange as you may think, Everyone has problems, Some people are just better at hiding it. Look around you, Ever seen someone do something totally strange? act Peculiar, made you wonder what Heck is there problem? Well the only difference between you or us, and them is They don't care what anyone thinks,and will probably go threw life just fine, We care to much about what everyone thinks,and that can keep us down, We need to stop looking for normal,and accept what we are, Try not to care what others think. Do what makes you happy! Who cares if its strange to others. Life can beat you, or you can grab it, and have a pretty nice ride threw out your life. Well that was probably what I would say to someone like I always was, anyway I hope this helps.