Well, I expect that most of us BP folk have sexual hangups and issues. I know I do. But I have to tell you sister, I've been doing a lot of reading since I accepted my diagnosis and your posting makes me think you're having an episode. I'd guess its a mixed episode. You're ruminating on negative issues and making assumptions that are making you paranoid. But I'm no expert. I probably shouldn't even be giving this advice. But I do know that when a person is having an episode, they often cannot see it. I know that situation very well. So talk to your therapist about it asap. Maybe you should get back on your meds?

M