I'm angry!

I thought today would be a better session because it was clear that we were going to talk about what made me so angry last time and deal with that. The beginning was okay when I was able to tell her why I was so angry and why it was so hard to deal with. But then near the end it went down hill again. She made a comment about my anger which I can see to be true, but then she continued on. She said that when I first came in to see her I was really angry. (No s*** sherlock- you think I didn't notice that, well obviously she doesn't. Not only was I angry when I came in I was furious.)

She said that I had trouble trusting people. I thought I made that clear when I started seeing her that the likelihood that I was going to be able to trust her in 12 sessions was very very slim. I thought I did a really good job given the limited time span. She suggested (since I have only 2 sessions left) that it would probably be best for me to go back to see my old T if I can because then I don't have to work on trusting someone new. (You don't say).

Along with these I felt like she left me alone with my urges to use bad coping mechanisms. She probably didn't want to bring attention to them, but I would have liked if she had asked more. Instead of just leaving me hanging when I said I was having urges to use them and not responding to the comment at all. It feels like she doesn't even want to know and there is no one else I can talk to about it. It makes me feel so lonely and uncared about. Like my pain doesn't matter.